I am not a wage earner....I honestly tried my best to make a living -I always had my pension since about age 22 so have not been too desperate but I always look at people that lead normal lives with so much awe - it must take so much strength to live that life a lot of routine and drive and sacrificing your freedom to earn money and boy do they get to eat well haha I am kind of in a mode of being a renunciate so that I may enjoy the last half of my life in peace - I just feel working hard at my life and surviving on very little reward will pay off eventually then I can eat luxe vegan shit hahaha I am not jealous when I see what someone that works produces I just know they all carry a lot of unspoken debts and traumas from working in a toxic environment -I just really have used what I have which is very little to achieve such vastness and maybe one day I can afford endless grilled tofu hahaha (life goals)