I think working at the sex church was an eye opener into christianity and a test of my faith like they are all nuts lol would rather live without the $700 than having a weird koot salivate over me? and work in a toxic environment for income-I thought it was immune to being toxic being a church to be honest - like I think it was a test of my faith in good and its not gonna make me think more critically of jesus or buddha but strengthen my faith that I will make it if I believe in all that is good and have come from a life of intrigue and able to make it into a fairytale and that belongs to me, not an anus and testical director of the board so have fun in your sex church I am gonna be achieving what most at that place could not as an elderly and I hope and pray that they will find comfort in what they have shown me about religion I did really get to see how a real church is run and volunteering at the gallery taught me how an art gallery is run kind of sneaky attempts at boosting my skills a bit :)

 got to spend all night every weekend here just me and the man/woman/they upstairs like I strongly believe I manifested this blog in my rave outlook it was great but I do miss it all seems like a dream through being sick and almost homeless this place really helped me recharge

I worked hard and gave it everything I had and thought I was going to be in that job for much much longer

Like I am not gonna swear off all belief systems as evil and invalid

but I do know that if I make a few wrong choices geared towards evil I WILL LOSE IT ALL

my future income, my legacy, my creativity, my balance, my spark

what is the point of even having $1B if you have no soul whatsoever

like they rub it in our faces constantly 

and someone here in this realm will dismember you over $300