on a surface level like doing lottery budgets and my own personal budgy for hours a day and deleting then reclaiming about 30 .com domains with the registrar seems kind of delusional lol I just kind of work with what I have even if it borders on madness like honestly all of us (each 1 of us) is totally delusional about something or a few things - some looking in on my life must wonder how doing the 40,000th budget in word docs for my 'as of yet obtained money' is useful but it will be when it all happens I will be totally prepared hehehe always trying to help myself out a bit see I could be hunting delicious twinks to pay $80 to see their dicks all day out in society but I stay home cycle thru my delusions -and post to blogs -contest -go in SL- do art- hahaha shiz funny

 Just a by products of the MK ultra pharmaceutical cartel hahaha at least I have techno to kinda stabilize me on a daily basis and all the frieking meds I am on just help me go from insanely right choice to another great choice hahaha instead of knawing off someones big toe and eating it in front of police and psychiatric nursing units - see a lot of psych ward nurses have fat arms- they stink and they smell real bad and just obsess about seeing the fat cocks of their psychiatric patients. they are gross...