Remember people Graveyards are full of doctors mistakes - u have to find other ways to deal with day to day trauma other than smoking drinking etc its like if you dont find a workaround they have your deathwarrant signed sealed and delivered - fucking annoy the hell out of them !!! stay in this place until you are 97 years old hahaha that is the ultimate payback dont just poison yourself endlessly like are you that mad at yourself? and why exactly?