Ask and repeat the english word of FORGIVENESS 50 Billion times and you will fare well it means you recognize the evil in ur past and have moved on....don't send ur enemies chocolates lol but I mean this is a practice for yourself :) you dont even know how many lives you actually take in a human life like insects cow chicken and fish etc just by walking you probably squish 10 bugs a day and that is a whole being that just wanted to live as much as you do