I was really broken a few months ago I thought I would be on the street the only thing that saved me was the church I have access to 24/7 I really came close....was sheltered by a sex addict Narcissist that gave me a deadline to move because he wanted to have sex with married men, he told me that I was using him simply cause I needed a friend to help move this is what FRIENDS do for each other, I am sorry I have high standards for my friends if you are not willing to step up please there is the door I thought this was my best friend all the while he was calling me a huge huge huge obese fat boy/ druggie cause I smoke weed lol and I have never felt so much trauma as a few months ago here I am safe in my new refuge back with the people that truly care about me but I came close to ending it all I came so close I needed three psych ward visits oh god I came so close I almost went to iceland in my suffering I almost gave up but the church saved me gosh I cant stress the need for spirit and god in ones life and to cry when you need too this whole reality is taxing and painful and suffering god its so tough being a human being the psychiatric system is a fucken warzone of suffering you are lucky if you can get 4 hours on a psych ward they just tell you they cant do anything for the homeless and send you on your way here I am safe with my skater str8boy roomie took out a massive student loan on my talent I am gonna fucken make it babes I am sick of suffering endlessly as a broke chav