So my life is going all over the place lately have a possible affordable housing 45 min away in a new town and higher up priority on subsidized housing list in my city cause I am technically homeless also it would allow me to keep my job and going to be applying via postal mail to a buddhist training monastery whatever path reveals itself I am ready I have honestly wanted to be a buddhist monk for like 22 years !!! cant find a platonic partner or anything else other than casual work its like no options really so my answer is to turn a horrible situation into something beautiful like leave it all behind and become an alms mendicant