oki so not entering monasticism I feel the internet & whatever is left of my sexuality and my epic art + my porn websites this church, manifesting, jacking to gay porn and blogging pepsi 420 meat-holding money when you are at the precipice to being a great and profound artist and a bunch of other stuff like my HAIR is too important to meh I am really struggling to find a path but I have faith that one will be revealed soon :)