u may not understand what its like to be in a satanic generational abuse bloodline u look for literal survival any way you can even with narcissistic people its very difficult to survive as a schizophrenic because you know you are just one handcuff away to being dragged into a psych ward because you have a mental illness and smoke 420 that is enough grounds for them to forcibly confine and medicate you and electroshock you (humane these days but still) your survival goes off at times of crisis and you fear having all your civil rights suspended because of something they see on your blog lol