Would I even advocate going at it on your own? yes but its a super hard path with no viable exit and can be extremely lonely and impossible to do unless you have a social welfare pension or trust fund I know why masons and such do it....its the easy route to fame and fortune really you just regurgitate shit you see in a masonic text and say aloud through der hearings and this makes you a suitable candidate for membership this is kind of weird because there is people that are far more talented than the reptillian mindset I mean its horrible to go down the path of secret societies but I just think its way better off for your souls worth to live on rice for 10 years and manifest an extraordinary life than to go down the easy route by joining a closet case sex cult - you wonder why you never see bella hadid the supermodel smile? she is not happy with herself beside the obvious she is a sex trafficked rape victim and does it for her millions....not my life no my life I want to smile so wide its contagious I want to make retarded faces at myself and just laugh and take comfort that I have made the right decisions however painful and lonely the path remains....