totally macabre but U need a DAILY if not hourly reminder of satanism and evil, injury pain or death and you will be reminded of what is at stake between good forces on earth and evil, and what is at stake for your soul...without this daily reminder of evil you remain totally ignorant of it until its too late.... my daily reminder is that masonic initiates forced me to carve the tau cross into both wrists almost ending my life at age 15