Its been way too long blogbuddies since I wrote something hahaha I have been stuck in the visual for so long its funny….This past few weeks with trump leaving office has been an intense time of awakening and renewal, I have battled a few things too and suffered the head being chopped off a buddha it was kind of an omen of things to come in the coming weeks, my computer died completely so I have been on a backup one for a few weeks and let me tell you it is like 11 years old so slow slow slow hahaha
Now I have dealt with two addictions, smoking ciggies and 420 and am battling my third which is gambling and slots, its funny cause I still want to gamble in big lotteries and keno but I just want to lessen the hold that slot machines have over me…
My new computer arrived this past week and its effing epic and has given me a boost of confidence – when you are used to 14 inch screens for the past decade and you literally have a fuckin galactic screen at your disposal anything is possible art wise and blog wise, I literally have to look around the entire screen to do anything its so effing huge hahaha
The changes have been epic to keep up with I mean I have had all the above plus smaller more interesting adaptations in my life I have had to keep up with like the bank refusing a cheque of mine over 11 cents that they charged the day before and didn’t post until the next day then charge me an NSF fee of $45 fuck me – shit like this happens around retrograde but I have always been one that thrives on adversity and chaos..
I hafta say blogbuddies that the virtual minstry has been EXPLODING lately
I have been keeping up with traffic counts and this blog has been averaging about 400-800 people coming back day in day out for the past while, I tended to ignore traffic counts I mean I always knew that there would be people reading and such but never really occurred to me that it would be that high and its effing epic cause people are hungry for a different extreme leftist, anti mason anti conformist, anti establishment anti religious/mainstream viewpoint and here you have it !!
Its so funny to be the spiritual leader of a multifaith yet have such a disdain for organized religion hahaha even though I use the title reverend :)
Quitting 420 has been an epic choice, while there is no withdrawl- I did use it as an emotional crutch yet I did not realize how much of a burden financially it actually was, its just a profound time of awakening and rebirth and a time of ascension and evolution for a lot of people and I think I am not alone in all the challenges I face…even being human is challenging just keeping up with the body’s needs and making sure I don’t puke all over myself with my extreme nausea but also just staying squeeky clean and fed (incl fruit lol) is a challenge –I understand that there is so many issues that people face even on a daily basis and it can be mind numbing sometimes, like you think you are treading along nicely and bam a migraine hits haha fun times
Well, its been fun finding my newfound cash flow without things hindering me, but Michael Alig Dying just a matter of a few years being released from prison has taught me what I need to know about addictions and the ability to ascend in life…I surely do not want to come back again and again to learn the lessons of this life…I want to nip it in the bud and become totally enlightened and experience full liberation which includes financial and spirital and otherwise…..its just such a waste to die from an overdose with so much potential art wise and otherwise but we all have demons that we must face and I am gonna fight mine until the very end….
To let you all in on where I am literary wise I have zenophobic 1 up and fully edited and published, zenophobic reunited is written but not edited and zenophobic triplicate (the 3rd in the series) is about ¼ of the way written. However I have been under writers block for many years. I kind of wanted to see the first book gain some popularity before I felt the inspiration to continue the series but oh well
I am pretty sure I want to get back into it – I can only do so much blawging and art before I go nuts –its just with endless time at your disposal you have just endless projects to pursue essentially when you are an artist you have to be able to manage your time and abilities with very little resources at your disposal and I love doing art and contesting and such its just I wish I could make money at it this past year has been abysmal contest wise its funny, I have been contesting for a year and all I won is some ground beef as they say or an iron HAHAHA
Money has never been my endgoal though its been expression, its kind of funny people look at my art and try and quantify it in their thinking process and try and exact meaning from it all (each piece) it makes me laugh cause after about 4050 pieces of rave male art done in z3n8 style I have never really put meaning into each piece I mean not everything can be justified I mean did warhol really think people would ponder the meaning of life looking at a soup can of oyster stew? I think not hahahaha
My basis has always been to cast light on sacred masculinity and paint males as objects of beauty and intrigue rather than just the workhorses of society feeding hungry families etc
I know the blawg has been extremely visual lately and I may do some more written edicts or discourses in the near future I don’t really know, I have to be in a writing or talking mood to do them and I do not know what the future holds just maybe this is a baby step into the written edicts
Take care blohgbuddies and peace
Rev Dr Shaun Delage