I have been
wanting to write a discourse for the longest time but I am afraid my visual
life has taken me over !! I was thinking back to when I was in alternative
school and a girl gave me acid in the beginning of the day and I sat in one
spot tripped out until 4pm and I couldn’t help but feel sad at where my life
had taken me, here I was the last school that would take me (an alternative
school. I was kicked out of the home and a matter of months later I would have
attempted suicide in a foreign country. Heavy drugs have given me nothing but
anxiety and severe symptoms that I live with to this day. I smoked a lot of
meth in my teens and I would take countless drugs a night, what was going on in
my head I don’t know but most people would stop experimenting at like 2 or 3...
I had to push it and do a dozen different substances every night. Thankfully these
days they have legalized 420 and it gives me some healing and creativity but it
does have some negative effects like paranoia and feeling overwhelmed when you
have to go into public. But on the fresh side it does give me massive amounts
of creativity and allows me to think of things to do that I buried in the
recesses of my mind. Now that I live back in the city from my old home in the
forest in Shawnigan Lake I am kind of struggling to keep everything together –
for 3 months I was a total vegetarian and starting out back at the gym –in the
process I was literally starving to death cause I was lacking the complex
proteins I needed for working out, then you add in that I am a very poor
reverend finance wise I live well below the poverty line, unfortunately my
government here likes to keep people trapped in a financial prison, literally I
have my budget planned down to the dollar every month – I don’t know how I do
it but I do it –I am used to this life of a pensioner and artist, confessional
blogger...I don’t know anything else, I just don’t have the ability to
subscribe to a working life and at least all my bills are paid I just can’t
help but think of the tiny incursions in my life that could have put me on a
different path. I am manifesting as a commitment and not many people can invest
the time needed for total manifestation. So I am lucky in that regard. Having all
my bills paid is a blessing but having nazi like governments keeping you in a
financial prison system of welfare slavery is brutal like if you earn more than
a few dollars or get a cash gift you are supposed to report the finances and
they cut it from your cheque- if you are living with another person they
will cut your check if the person makes more than minimum wage, you literally
can’t get things like dental work fully done, things that pop up that require a
little investment are a no go –this society rewards psychopathic behaviour in
the form of extroverted maniacs whom only care about money. The artists, the
authors, the ravers, the introverts, the people on financial assistance are
just expected to live in isolation and not be seen. This is why I am
manifesting greatness, I don’t want to be in this life forever and eventually
it will change. Manifesting is a long hard and cruel journey and I have been
manifesting greatness for about 16 years now, and if I focused all my attention
on smaller things instead of massive wealth I would have achieved those things
a lot sooner. I know I am manifesting great and powerful things because it hasn’t
hit yet, and when the time is ready my financial, full, and spiritual liberation
will come, and it will be the highest power that will give it to me because I am
ready and I am able to handle authority. I have done about 20x more art than
most of the great artists and it is a milestone and I don’t plan on stopping
anytime soon, I estimate I have done about 2800 male art pieces more than Warhol,
Picasso, dali etc
Its my
legacy to the world an idealistic impression of male beauty. Since men are
undervalued in society I find it very appealing to really immerse myself in
this type of art, men are so beautiful. Something to be appreciated and an
object of beauty that should be recognized and valued !! I love what I am doing
currently with the art and my life because I am doing things that nobody would
ever invest the amount of time in, and I am doing what I love. Its the work of
the lord, the Buddha, the most high. My path is unique and that of anomalous
nature. When you are reclusive like me, the world seems so small – it is my
hope that my blogbuddies will heed my advice and accept an invitation to start
on the path of manifesting what they really want –not what the system wants
them to do, prop up your own life don’t let others dictate where you go on this
path, and since you are reading these words the universe is showing you an
alternative viewpoint and you should feel blessed that you are already on a path
to discovering yourself with a little help from the church of techno. I hope we
can all heal from our pain and wounds and move on with dignity and happiness –
guided and protected by the unknown.
-Rev Shaun Delage PhD