The church
is taking a great path by offering things such as entertainment and news
postings along with discourses and other things. I remember a time in my life
when I wanted to become a Buddhist monk and that is all I thought of,
unfortunately it conflicted with my life of having a partner etc
Now I realize that I may not be the Buddhist monk
type but rather a new urban type monk, I see a lot of flaws in Buddhism but
like any religion it will have them, it just seems like this one is the one
without a massive amount of flaws and I just think it has more to offer
humanity than faiths that teach in allegorical reference and hypothetical
scenarios I just don’t get the other mainstream faiths and they all don’t
accept me for my sexuality so fuckem. Currently in my life I am hoping to
obtain some sort of subsidized or supportive housing for the long term to be
independent...the last time I was independent was in my teens and that didn’t
end up very well. I have always been with somebody and I thought to myself what
if my purpose was to eventually discover independence ?? I figure society tries
to lay it on strong that you need a partner to survive but I think single
people have much more to offer society.
My manifesting
is taking off – I use video, audio and meditation and visualization and I have
won quite a bit this past year and in the lunar year of the dawg. I am a living
testament that manifesting works. I have been able to get phase 1 of about 5
phases of stuff for my new place, starting with a twin bed and a microwave and
various other small items....my next purchase will be a bit bigger with some
essentials then lastly I have to focus on things like wifi & routers and
stuff. This may not seem like much to the average person but to a person that
has complexities such as mine it is a very big step and the going phrase around
the dt east side was “I have ice cream in my freezer” and what they mean by
that is that with drugs and food and rent of a single room occupancy there is
not much left on welfare income other than maybe a tub of ice cream basically
if you have money to spare for ice cream you have it made you have MADE It –
people there would steal groceries from people walking it was that bad !!!
Thankfully
I have always been taken care of, I have never been homeless per se but very
close, thankfully I have always had a smile to attract a mate and an income to
support my bills!! While this may not be enough to the average person....to me, it
is a blessing since there is divine because in some countries there simply is
no social welfare structure to assist. Right now India and Pakistan may be
declaring war, Trump is in a summit in Vietnam, Canada is in turmoil due to a
scandal and well you can get all swept up in this stuff or you can simply focus
on the self and your own pursuits and it is time to stop and reflect and take
calm in the silence cause you never really know when this could all flash and
its done reality is gone as you know it and what did you do but do everything
opposite to the spirits needs just propped up the matrix and its needs in the
pyramid structure. I think you would feel pretty robbed when the powers that be
insist that you must come back another time to deal with the karma of your
life. I was just telling somebody close to me how I have not incurred any
negative karma in the last oh say 14 years and how much of a blessing that is.
I mean for minimal meat eating and animal stress but if you work to obtain
sincerity in all you do for 14 years that could be a millennia of karma !!
before that –all I was racking up was negativity and was most likely under the
control of luciferian consciousness whom rewarded me vastly. Now I am okay
subsisting on rice and cilantro a tomato and some onion and broth to cook it
in, in my teens only stealing from somebody and being able to afford a $400 buffet
would make me happy !! but I have to be thankful that I learnt from those
experiences and am happy living as a monk. I sacrifice decades to meditation
and I have not gained much but the loss of anger, hostility, sadness, illness,
and negativity.
Second life
has been wonderful – since my small house for communal living is paid off tile
2021 I decided to make a massive house that is 110% more vegas ritzy for my
followers and my traffic and popularity has jumped immensely – I just felt
after years of getting a place to live in the virtual world that there should
be a place that is free that all can live and listen to rave music J it’s turned out to be a blessing
because I have met some very beautiful souls. Well I am about 5 months into
being mostly vegetarian and I was just talking to a family member about how
gross cashew hazelnut and almond unsweetend milk tastes (like earth lol)
anyways I said “I have to drink it I have no other choice I have to get my
protein from somewhere”
I’ve also
realized that I just feel so happy by not handling meat- when you are single
sometimes all you crave for dindin is a square of smoked tofu and that is fine
you are not forced to eat an entire meal !
Man it
seems that life lessons have been layering on these past 15 years accelerating
me into my manifesting. While I am trying with all my might to manifest a great
and powerful win I also have to be realistic with my goals and not base
everything on a potential lottery win, I have to make efforts to gain housing
on my own and discover independence because if the lottery win doesn’t happen
then at least I have stability – honestly I think I will win because there is
no other option in my goals and once you strive to manifest it just never
stops...I forgot to mention I use vision boards too J One thing I am most thankful for is
my health...theoretically I only need to go into a doctors office like once in
3 or 4 years the rest can be done in a virtual doctor and I am so thankful for
that because I came from a life of smoking and drugs but all I see in my
building I live in is clouds of cigarette smoke wafting from peoples doors and
I wonder what was going on in my mind to puff away endlessly on those
irradiated things and what are they anyway lol I guess in my writing this
discourse I just wanted to share a bit of my life lately and not have a topic
driven post so it is with great pleasure that I offer this written discourse
for your reflection and the church has just passed the 300k discourses read mark!!!
Thanks blogbuddies this is unfathomable J PluR
-Rev Shaun Delage