Greetings blogbuddies !!
In a world where one can be depressed about meditating no wonder, we for sure don't live in an ancient world where it is commonplace and quite the strange aspect to life when one takes on the practice of meditating.
There can also be outside influences such as attention deficit with meditating and sometimes I go through a faith depression lol because there is not many places for a church of techno in the world, one that does not ramble on and on about the bible, and to most that have issues with the illusions of mainstream religions look for other ways to express their faith, be it in new age faiths like this one or other practices such as wicca, paganism or buddhism or even the more hardcore ones like black magic and satanism out of an extreme distaste and unfriendliness for all that is christianity. Truth is, any avenue the individual chooses for their path is the right one.
I mean for a Church of Techno, that is a virtual ministry with gay leanings and the ultimate sermons being techno it is quite a place to find itself online, nobody would touch you within an advertising scope if you have things like wealth attraction, hot young guys kissing, and discourses that preach about individual thought. But essentially isn't this the role of the guru or reverend to bring about change and bring about new levels of thinking...I mean most of the other faiths have pre written sermons and teachings that they rely on, and not new thought guided by enlightenment and techno.
When you are depressed about your meditation practice remember that it is only temporary, that you will feel motivated again and it is up to you to pull yourself out of it. There is nobody guiding your practice other than yourself, I mean it would be so easy for the universe to embody 10,000 enlightened beings as kings of the earth and the answers to all your questions but that is up to you to find. you must find your own path or have it found for you.
It's not my place to bash other mainstream faiths but I can see the illusions in all of them, I mean the violence, abuse and lies that they spew out no wonder people look for answers in the darkest parts of the world, being drugs and crime and things like pain and other things to help them see truths in things.
honestly I believe the masochist has more of an enlightened soul than the baptist mother of 5 in Wisconsin but who am I to judge,
being given so much free time on the globe for about 15 years I have had to keep myself busy to endless time and I find most people I interact with have little time at their disposal and I have a wealth of time it is tough to not find inklings of depression in my meditation or other forms of chaos like ADD with endless hours, endless days and endless time at my disposal but I have found to just follow through with my own practice and I have made myself a bet, do meditation that is fun...so I use my meditation not to endlessly scan the body, but to manifest things I desire...I am greedy and I find that this is a practice that works in the present and when I achieve my goals I can move onto other more elevated concepts.
Just take rest and understand that you will feel it again and you will feel the energy of the cosmos and you will ascend and make it so to speak, there is no other option.
-Rev. Dr. Shaun A. Delage