All that matters is the present moment, how much beauty,
compassion and eloquence you exude not only to others but to yourself, many
people feel they are not worthy of special attention given the cattle like
programming we are all under daily.
Much of my own personal salvation came being humiliated and
being an outcast within the gay community. Puss boys laughing at my originality
or my 'walk' and I only found my future within the rave scene, which was way
more welcoming than the gay scene, I find the gay scene to be extremely narcissistic
and psychopathic. I remember going into gay clubs only to be humiliated by drag
queens a few times, and people just acting like everyone they meet is strictly
a sex toy.
In the rave scene I found, peace, love, unity and respect! I
found a community where I could express my inner child, my animal side, my
carnal nature being and most of all use the auditory sounds to achieve a
certain level of evolution. I strongly believe that techno is a route to
profound enlightenment. But to each their own, I like to fill my day with
compassionate discourses on the way of life, techno, contesting, meditation,
obscure conspiracy or esoteric teachings, reading, blogging, writing,
forwarding my empire etc hehe
I have not been employed for over a decade but have never
really been bored, you would think somebody in my position would be staring at
the walls. I have found a certain level of comfort with my existence. The
ability to forward projects such as my books and other philisophical paths.
I observe people out in the world and feel nothing but
compassion for others paths, Most of us have it pretty tough. For me
personally, I think somebody would have major issues just jumping into my
existence for a week without the nature of my being present - what I mean is
that the person would have to have the intellectual capacity to take on some of
my endeavours, and I find my existence very challenging at times, part of me
feels loss over not being able to mesh with society more but in a way I am
society, I belong and I am here, which is what I think of...I may be alone in
the forest with a beautiful man and two cats and not see a soul for a month but
that is what I enjoy, my solitary reclusive nature, and rightfully so, I do not
need other peoples energy to keep me going, this is the strongest thing in
society -people need others for their own sanity, however I live strictly on
the energy of the buddhic or the energy of nature and the spiritual hidden
worlds. This many people would never understand.
We are in a very energy sucking inclusive environment and
most people are being indoctrinated into alien forms of living, it seems we
have lost our inherent humanity, our more deeper spiritual nature, our true
selves, our ancient purpose. But nothing to fear, I just can't relay in a
single teaching how important it is to sit calmly in the middle of the night
and focus on bringing your desires to you, otherwise your inherent humanity
will be dictated by forces you cannot control.
So the only thing that matters is the present moment, where
you reside right now, where you are going is coming but does not have to worry
you. I have always feared my past, so many questions...and my future oh man
nothing more fearful than that. But I have always felt that the present moment
scenario holds a certain level of magnanimity because hours can fly by, days
fly by, weeks fly by and you don't even notice it.
I think the biggest illusion in society is the time
illusion, we are imbedded to constantly be aware of time itself and the
illusion of constant ritual.
Anyways, enough of my speech for today, blessings
-
Shaun A. Delage
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