Well I am glad to see the church is continuing
I have never viewed my spending years upon years offering
the discourses in enlightenment and ascension mixed with a little bit of
craziness as a setback or a waste of time
exactly quite the opposite
I have had countless emails telling me to keep going, me so amazing hehe
just funny to be an online personality lolz
exactly quite the opposite
I have had countless emails telling me to keep going, me so amazing hehe
just funny to be an online personality lolz
So I am at a fence in the road, I can continue my writing or
simply let go and ordain as a Buddhist monk
The monk thing has been in my life for quite some time since
taking Vipassana meditation courses – I adore monastic life, what I need to
discover if this includes me, right now or shall I wait till I am 40 and have
exhausted every avenue in the material matrix
Tough choice
But ordaining seems like the right choice for me,
spiritually – To involve myself in the most reclusive and enlightened faith on
the planet
A psychic recently said I can still do well in the material
world, and if I should so choose, my books will gain quite the following but
she also said about the monk thing…
This is an important decision for you. You
can succeed in this material world. However, you would more easily fall into a
life like a Buddhist monk. You would become happier with this type of life. You
would do better here as your nature makes a spiritual existence more suited to
you.
The prospect of love
and the idea of becoming a world famous author and artist keep me going in this
reality but none of the material world gives me any sense of satisfaction
I have searched for love countless times, almost to lose my
life- this is what people sing about
The paradoxes of love so how could I search this out, I even
tend to wonder about my thinking process
The world has a lot of beauty and love in it, none of which
I believe I have found, only materialism, hatred and illusion-nothing I want
any part in, I strive to be around those of my own kind, uber intelligence,
striving for enlightenment, ascension and evolution – some peace and quiet,
assisting others through suffering is my greatest need considering the
magnanimity of my own suffering
I believe I would make a great Buddhist monk hehe just I
would miss things like, dinner, my hair and eyebrows, orgasms, shaving pubes,
voting, clothes, luxurious beds lol (I know big one haha) television, techno,
the internet among a few things
It would be tough to be around a bunch of other men in robes
in the middle of the furest without thinking a sexual thought haha
Part of me wants to go the route that is the toughest but I can
stick it out – to achieve enlightenment and be released from being reborn into
constant suffering
I have always been anti religion which is ironic because I have
held the titles of Reverend and Doctor for about 9 years – I don’t pretend to
know it all or want to go into spirituality for egotist pursuits
I just think the eastern cultures has nailed down the
paradoxes of enlightenment in a religion to the nine while the western
religions lack any level of evolution
Only lost in a sea of riddles and wafers and baptisms god
give my head a shake
So for me to ordain would be a big step, one in which I have
been pondering my existence as such for about a decade and I imagine myself
with robes on and no hair and no eyebrows god what a hot mess but I think I
would make a sexy hairless monk
It would take a lot of courage to walk away from this blog,
my novels, my virtual world of second life, the prospect of love and
materialism in totality but a step in life I am willing to do, because I live
with very little and it almost seems like a blessing to release holding money
all together
To some people religion is poison
Just imagine trying to tell your mostly catholic family you
want to be a Buddhist monk haha
Blessings
Just wanted to give my blogbuddies an update
-
Shaun A. Delage
