This past week has been a tad stressfull and when you’re an
insomniac schizophrenic life couldn’t really get any worse emotionally for the
most part. But I am reminded why I am here, and it is to become a fully
enlightened being in one life. I believe I am on that path but enlightened
beings suffer alongside the rest of us. I mean look at me, how possibly could I
be enlightened – I would be shuttled from castle to mansion in a sleek sedan
and have teams of bodyguards watching over me.
Enlightened beings suffer through things like poverty,
disease and trauma
Essentially you could never become enlightened without first
discovering trauma and the path of suffering. One would proclaim themselves a Buddha
to the masses but the masses would most likely sneer at them and throw rocks
saying you’re too ugly, fat or poor or weird to be a Buddha lol
But the Buddha or the enlightened one would say that he
would never join an ism or cult or faith to proclaim his inherent enlightened
state
Likewise I struggle with my enlightenment in a social sense,
literary wise I can write anything and affect the masses and it is all in the
works with my books and I believe in the projects only because I know what I
have written in two years, two books and finally done the rough draft of the
first novella and almost done the second ones rough draft
People would say, how could you be a writer without knowing proper
grammar or even how to spell grammar for that matter and I simply say that I
work with what I have and what I know
I can finance the book to the point of being edited by teams
of ivy league advisors and editors and haha I know I will be laughing when I am signing
inside the front page on both books my signature
And I envision it
I believe in it, the world is threatened by me. And is doing
everything in its power to make sure I stay in abject poverty riddled with my
own emotions.
I believe in the future and believe in myself I believe in
the story of JK ROWLING
I believe in the projects
I have faith in divinity and I know invisible beings have
read the book over my shoulder while I write it, offering suggestions in the
form of a whisper in my ear and this is just effin beautiful isn’t it
Because I will be liberated essentially and isn’t this the
path of the one
To experience complete liberation of suffering
I have never been in a trauma based mindset, never really
bothered by my own difficulties and surely don’t obsess about the captivation
manifesto much but I have no doubts I have affected change in the minds of
singular initiated sell outs and isn’t this the purpose of the supposed Christ consciousness
on earth
Very egotistical to relate to such a consciousness but not
based out of ego at all nobody even has any idea what it is like to live one
moment in my life but I have attempted to share it with the masses in the form
of this blog lovingly adopted as a virtual ministry in matrix techno
universalism
I have never worried about how much I share online because
this essentially is not me but an artistic representation of my character and
experiences to better aid others in their path of life.
I innerstand that there are many people that do not like me,
nor do they agree with my viewpoint but the funny thing is they keep reading so
who knows about them and if they can ever be saved per se but I know that my
life is meticulously observed by the trauma state because I have an energy and
very strong receptivity to beauty and intrigue
I have been threatened with my leg being eaten, I have been
raped violently countless times, almost given HIV, been tortured in foreign
countries by initiated sellouts, I have committed countless thefts from
disadvantaged people and wealthy alike, I have altered consciousness and
essentially remade the matrix in my favor, I have been given neurolinguistic
programming to the point of complete exhaustion
But I have also become a stronger person, somebody that is
happy, and influential, I never have to work a day in my life now with my
projects and thankfully I am on government benefits from my three disabilities
and if that is ever threatened I can cite human rights violations and win the
battle but essentially I will be able to tell them, I don’t require benefits
anymore because I have become a success
I am never sad about what has happened to me, because that
only brings more sadness
I am only sad at the concept of how many people we have lost
in the struggle to the torture state and the number keeps growing every moment
and I continue to be a beacon for these lost souls that wish to be surrounded
in the essence of enlightened energy which is why I only operate at night and
mostly in the astral and virtual worlds
Haha I struggle with any concept of ‘reality’
I feel it when I deal with people associated with the matrix
in some forms, they immediately get envious that I have a male feline look and
then they get jealous that I exist in some form of hatred broadcasted to me in
the simplest of interactions which essentially makes me laugh at all the
hostility broadcasted my way
It is almost a powerful Masonic curse has been cast on me,
and I am sure of it. I cant nail down who did it because it is probably dozens
of beings and essentially as well those beings continue to haunt me in
thoughtform or as well they have crossed over to the other side the hell realms
and told those astral entities about me and have received advice of how to give
retribution
Paradoxically I am not the same crazy teen I was in the 1990’s
rave days but my mistakes there haunt me to this day in the form of the earth
based sin based justice league whom is unforgiving
These days I live a quiet existence supported by those that
base themselves in reality , essentially protected by people involved in the
system if that makes any sense
I live with very very little material wise, and financially
But I am happy, content, kind, smiling, loving, generous,
skillfull, adept and powerful in my own regard
I only welcome beauty into my life and sometimes it is tough
to filter out all the madness broadcasted in my reality because I remain
asexual as such in the waking or dream world as I like to call it and have tons
of gay sex with men in the astral or real world as I like to call it
They don’t have really much currency in the astral other
than sex and love, I mean there is money and stuff and I have tons but the main
currency like here is sex and love
So I find a man, and make out with him and he cries in my
shoulder that he has lived countless lives in many worlds and never able to
project his true nature simply because the truth of his existence is being
shielded by powerful entities everywhere including the dream worlds
I like to set men free like this every night and I keep travelling
deeper into these realms, always getting transported and guided further through
the cosmos and I am in a way angry that my body is imprisoned on earth in the
year 2012 but perhaps I am needed here most of all, to guide others in the
church of techno and those closest to me
I don’t have faith that I can heal babies with cancer or the
ability to see individuals future but I have a knack at performance art and
virtuosity and writing not to mention astral travel lolz
So the waking world versus my reality always intermixes and
what is people and countries and this illusion but advanced interdimensional
sciences
Having faith in oneself requires great skill and
adaptability
Not relying on others but in essence I am very reliant on
the system and its inhabitants to survive and stay alive.
Reality it would seem could be contrived as a self defeating
prophecy but I only say this
Keep your heads up tigers, it’s the only thing we have left
-
Shaun A. Delage
