The past month has been a whirlwind romance in the woods
with a mountain man
I find the life of rural living to be intriguing but after
living the life for a month I realized that it is not for me.
The isolation really got to me, not having my own comforts I
am used too
I also strongly believe I am asexual at this point which
affects 1% of the populace
I believe I have a lot to offer somebody other than a sexual
life but in a sense I felt it was unfair to bring this to the table when he
deserved somebody that is more able to satisfy his needs
I find sexuality to be stifling and complex and being
proudly gay and then leaning on asexual has me mystified as to the realms of
sexuality
I appreciate being able to come into his life and likewise
him with me
I was able to put some rest to my binge marijuana smoking
I was able to put some rest to my binge marijuana smoking
While I am tempted to smoke it again
I realize that marijuana wont bring me the enlightenment I
require
And when your smoking $80 in one night and get nowhere
What is the purpose
I have actually grown to enjoy my enlightened state
While in my mountain cabin in the woods I discovered what we
take for granted in the cities
I discovered that there are calmer more gentler souls out there
that are not focus so solely on materialism and chasing after the things that
media instills on us
I don’t view me moving out of my home and into a cabin and
then moving out and back home as a falure per se
I am also able to dimensionally travel more when I am off of
marijuana
The kindness and hospitality shown to me has been immense
and I thank this man from the bottom of my heart for helping me discover and
put to rest my monastic desire
I have realized that perhaps being tucked away in the forest
in the middle of nowhere will bring me no enlightenment
My purpose is out here
Anyways I am going to hop offline now but wanted to write my
thoughts on my adventures for my blogbuddies
-
Shaun A. Delage
