Really, in an enlightened state requires love but most of
all a love for oneself before you can love another. Without loving your inner nature and your
external reality and in a sense even those qualities you keep hidden and secret
from the masses.
Me personally I am disgusted by some of the criminality I
have been involved in and the choices I have made but living in this reality
has taught me a wise lesson
That mostly all choice is illusion. Choice is an illusion
created by those with power for those without.
So I imagine my comptroller self in the stars, my highest
being, arranging all these events in my life to happen but for what end. My causality
has lead me to this point. Leader of the church of techno, a writer, virtual
fashion designer, poet, monk, reverend, matrix warrior.
Essentially I have end goals of being successful and have it
all together. I want my books and art to
skyrocket into the unknown and I want to be a millionaire. I enter hospital
lotteries and stuff but like most people just rely on lotteries for their inner
most dreams, when they should be tapping their talent and creativity and
inherently their enlightenment because there is way more ways to become a
millionaire than the lottery.
I strongly believe that if you keep your mind focused on the
end result you will never have to enter another lottery again for the ‘chance’
at winning. You can guarantee your success by taking on years long projects of
residual income. At least start your book !!!! At least make your first art
piece. At least work your first 8 hour shift or go for your 100th
interview just remember that usually your success is laid out around you this
very moment
I am deeply and fondly attracted to a man, that I admire.
Not just his striking looks but his nature to want to get to know me. Not just
the one way listening that most people tend to do. He takes time to understand
me. Something not many people have attempted to do my entire existence. I have begun to realize that I am a bit more
complex than I originally thought.
Me I just go from project to project and part of it is
boredom and unemployment and I have A LOT of time on my hands. Luckily I am
fortunate to be liberated financially in a sense but very limited in that
scope. I tend to focus on the five or six purchases I have a month and really
plan it out when the very wealthy just blow through their money in this fascist
corporate Masonic dictatorship we live in
The marketing is geared towards the lower end spectrum of
humanity when really most of the items and things to ingest and buy are propped
up by the illusion of wealth
We have multitudes of secret societies operating here in
north America it is tough to put a finger on one core group of people that are
accessory to things like monarch slavery, torture and war crimes because there
is so many of them operating
In a way I oppose this structure. yes. But would you want to
be stuck in tribal rule under a sadistic emir or a communist dictator or under
the watchful eye of a socialist governance or under the spell and authority of
bloodline monarchy
Part of me is beating myself up for not joining the
anonymous movement. I am not desperate for change nor do I oppose anything they stand for. I
just distrust anything extroverted. Groups of people. Crowds.
I have done my research on these camps and yes they are a
good idea but nobody wants to address who is behind the mask and it is the
advanced psychologists of the CIA and various other intelligence agencies.
I guess it is better than living how we have been but I have
strongly been advocating to not join a crowd and wear a mask but carve your own
unique identity, carve your own mask. Be the master of your own enlightenment
Never join an ism, faith or ideology
Never be apart of the collective
I was thinking about love. I have met the most impressive
man in the world. But up to two weeks prior to me meeting him I went to the
beach at 4 am in the dark and I was seriously contemplating jumping in the
water and inhaling and just giving up.
My life is constant psychological operations and trauma
But thankfully I didn’t jump in. I asked for help from
divinity to show me a way out and I am proud of myself for not giving up
Part of me discovered that I have sought out love my entire
life. But nobody has ever loved me like a soulmate it has always been me loving
the person unconditionally and they take advantage of that
I have never had love. That is sad. The only time I was in
love was at 15 yrs when I met Derek and he rejected me and I attempted suicide
brutally so nothing to really base my experiences on and this silly fascination
with love
But how could I love another without loving myself
Then I have spoken to hundreds of men online in chats that
go nowhere emails etc
I just feel after some time alone for three years that I was
able to come to a love for myself alone and this is paradoxical considering my
beach jumping drama but I also live with the complex mental illness so I have
an excuse lol for those that are going to call the white coats on me i say only this I way too damn talented and intelligent and kewt too to want to truly carry out something like that
I strongly believe wanting to give up is an emotion
but also one we are losing many too every moment of every day
but people are also finding their love and essentially linking with their soulmate wherever in the celestial world they may reside and some peoples soulmates for various reasons are gone only to be linked up with the person from the astral world and simply some people cant look for love based on looks or confidence so most people spend their whole lives ignoring the prospect of love and focusing solely on material gain...
I strongly believe wanting to give up is an emotion
but also one we are losing many too every moment of every day
but people are also finding their love and essentially linking with their soulmate wherever in the celestial world they may reside and some peoples soulmates for various reasons are gone only to be linked up with the person from the astral world and simply some people cant look for love based on looks or confidence so most people spend their whole lives ignoring the prospect of love and focusing solely on material gain...
To find him, and get so used to him in such a little amount
of time is incredible.
He is amazing, friendly, confident, quiet, loving, has a
soul.
He wants to get to know me and me same with him. But if I
chose to jump that morning, I would have never discovered him. This makes me
think of the countless people that we are losing every hour because of the
trauma inflicted on behalf of the system and believe me most of it is satanic
in nature
I strongly believe that god or divinity or Buddha or
whatever is simply just effin exhausted keeping up with all the sellouts that
inflict trauma on others. I strongly
believe divinity works through the mind a sort of dimensional gateway that can
never ever be hacked
And believe me they are trying.
I wanted to find somebody that enjoys me for me, my core
self
That wont treat me with hostility if I say something
intelligent or trippy or funny
I strongly believe that many around one being are advocating
for the torture of the being including friends relatives and family in this
society we live in. There are millions of monarch generational abuse bloodlines
and families and the abuse is happening at a very methodical and very satanic
level even in the minds of the most divine.
Which is why so many people give over their minds and bodies
to isms, faiths, religions etc
They are, essentially….scared of themselves.
When your diverse in your thoughtform you are enlightened
There is no other way to describe it
This is what our system hates, is diversity in thought
But as well what else is enlightenment ?? it is compassion
for suffering in humans, animals, plants and elemental and celestial/universal
worlds , it is a loving nature, it is happiness, it is kindness for others (at
all times- even when they are ‘very mean’ to you)
Enlightenment is not a new age philosophy or needing to
shave your head so people believe you are enlightened
There are very very few enlightened beings on earth
VERY FEW
Which is why you see people in droves flocking to sites such
as this one, the resistance or david ickes blog or intheknow7’s or
illluminatimatrix for example
Because these are mysterious internet strangers that have no
other goals in mind but to further the cause of humanity and to lift the
inherent trauma state.
But you must be careful of where you bring your presence to
and where you broadcast your enlightenment because there is very envious people
and organizations that are angry that they didn’t have the courage to go down
the same path as you. They sold out. They were led along and helped along by
rich parents got told about the masons by their rich friends got initiated into
the various cults and well like the rest of us, they never have to worry about
money or security ever again because these organizations take care of their
own. But for people like me that resist masonry, trauma, cults, etc
You are mocked, abused, traumatized, and tortured until you
submit
The luciferian mind wants every single soul on earth and
will spend hundreds of millions to finance the soul being harnessed- the joke of situation is that you will never see a penny of it because the conciousness technically has ownership over all beings in this realm that span for 70,000,000 planets in hell realms mixed with fantasy dream scenarios and psychological operations
Where do you put your allegiance and your choices?
Deep within your shining and most ultimate and beautiful
self of course !
-
Shaun A. Delage
