I wandered into the Victoria electronic music festival and have decided one thing...that the rave scene is extremely social. I mean everyone knows everyone. Funny thing to is that i used to have thousands of friends and now i am somewhat of a social outcast. The party made me think about the things i despise in the rave scene and allowed me to go incognito to the party.
But essentially what i disliked about the rave scene is the isolation you felt even amongst the most social scene alive ...Then you throw in the advanced sciences of drug experimentation and people are literally left in a dejected and forgotten state.
Then throw in societal pressures and we have people that are partying that are on the edge of collapse literally. You have people in the scene taking so much drugs they hope to die because of all the pain.
I realised how much the scene has changed in ten years. Still propped up by the teen culture. But it is nice to see everyone alive and kicken...as far as my involvement in the scene goes I don’t think i will make a habit of going to parties alone. I need somebody to take me these days. It is likewise with the club. I remember going to one party and i dropped a hit of acid and sat in the corner for the whole party. People even came up to me and asked why I wasn’t partying. It was a low time in my life, i had just left home and was couch surfing. I guess the party is the last place i should have been at.
Many think the rave scene is all about parties and music but there is a sadistic world underneath ...backstabbing, drug induced rumours and the consequences of mixing drugs etc
Me I got involved with selling xtacy at some point and just finding an echelon within the rave scene...I guess in a way my karma is being laid out for giving all those other teens a 45 mg cap of xtacy
But people learn, they move on. They learn.
The series of handlers i met in the rave scene almost suckled on like octopus’s....I had people that would con caps of E from me and people that would take advantage of people that were high. But there is some positives of the scene
The dimensional calculation of the music
The actual soul friends you meet in the process
The triptoys
The candy
The outfits
The insanity
The lineups for things like washrooms and to get in and the patdowns
I also realised that the candy scene is almost dead. I saw one girl out of about a thousand that had actual candy on. Seemed that scene died out in early 2000
My time at the electronic music festival was awesome and splendid ...I don’t know if i am ready at this point to go into an all out pawty...only time will tell. If I find a supportive lover I think I could convince him to go to a few parties but other than that I am okay expressing my rave side through my own interpretation.
People are suffering all around. It is time to reconnect to your inherent humanity and support others in their struggle to live. We live in a very dangerous place to live. It is survival of the fittest amongst psychological operations, in depth
Which is why it is always smart to be sound about ur humanity and sound about compassion and love
Treat others with dignity and kindness and amazement at their creation and ignore all those that try and ruin it for others.
Matrix universalism fits right in with the techno scene. Nicely !
- Shaun A. Delage
