Ascension itself is a very difficult process ...some people leave their country because of it...some hurt others, people walk their paths in life never thinking about how they blended or clicked with the individual
I have walked an extreme level of ascension since the 2012 mania hit and it seems to only be concentrating in time and this is fortunate in some regards but also not a life for somebody already detached from reality
My reality exists mainly as virtuosity amidst a cruel and cold place rife with psychological operations everywhere you go ...Which is why I personally saw benefit in the creation of several virtuosities
Really pondering on the existential qualities of people I am left with no other understanding other than people are fucking crazy at times
I lost something profound today and I have been struggling to come to terms with and i needed a call from my ex bf angel to lift me out of my world of depression. The news hit that I have lost Rev. Kai as a virtual online husband. It has hit pretty hard past few days and it has been tough to take since there is such an emotional empathic and etheric connection to the divine
I have to shake myself to remind myself this is not the end that we are still great friends
Part of me knows why, it is the virtual connection we had in second life that profoundly affected me. Because I had been searching for some union like this in the entire time I was in the virtual world.
This makes me think of how many people are married off and have sims and homes, and pets and are in loving virtual union
I took him off from husband status about a month ago and we have been idle as friends which i adore and now this, makes me think of the struggle of humanity ...that some people are literally in decades long depressions over some things
It makes me think of the new world of avatar psychology
He made me believe in the qualities I seek in a man
It helped me to understand more of who I am
Now I feel like I am in a total post apocalypse lol but I will get over it eventually
I think I just need rev kai
In physical presence, a Canadian, around my age, kind, chill, and hot !
And I will be set.
- Shaun A. Delage
