What exactly is enlightenment even within the confines of a human self enlightenment can be quite paradoxical from simply a feeling to all out body sensation to being able to perform super human abilities etc But in my case i view myself as a relatively enlightened being simply because of my path. Which is untraceable and undefinable and you cannot copy my path as i cannot copy yours.
Simply to go about life as a witness to many of the grievances that took place against me resulting in a dangerous game of cat and mouse i am still here. I articulate things better in the written form then any other avenue of expression and i like to pour my frustration into my art projects.
But even enlightened beings have other problems and issues that arise including those with the state etc
People must read through a few tidbits of my virtual representation of me (this blog) some would get scared and others their heart races or others say wtf or others are like right on a freedom fighter haha
Many appreciate my struggle as a millennium warrior fighting to make sure those over power over the other generations remain in closed quarters where they belong.
It is simply an undeniable fact that when you have other types controlling you and you belong to a different generation it proves hostility and the person develops a deeper disharmony with their surroundings and rightfully so maybe this was their intention... is to alienate the rulership even more so than ever thought possible. Putting such control mechanisms in place as our prime minister or others like George bush and those peoples view definitely do not reflect the values of the common canadian but why don’t we go a bit deeper than that and look at how the values reflect on the common millennium warrior/ matrix warrior.
Only a certain level of bittersweetness applies and the millennium warrior only sees the world with more hostility because they don’t see an open raver in power or an open marijuana smoker etc somebody that thinks like them heck they would probably even accept a punk in office but hatefully so there are systems in place in parliament such as oaths to the queen and decorum that must be observed so these serve as a system of checks and balances and if you don’t live up to your attested role or cannot rightfully make allegiance to her majesty then you are chucked out to the meat grinder again.
It would seem the war we are fighting, is the war between the generations and lesser so the war between classes. But also realizing your inherent humanity rather than alien characteristics of learnt knowledge or the learnt characteristic of the nazi workplace ethic that pervades all north American workplaces or the weird symbiance of the mechanics of post secondary which by its very nature is ritual magic. Only because the teachers of post secondary are those of programs that cannot stray into freeform or other forms of expression other than the official line of the college or university
I woke up today and realized what i did yesterday and made a coffee and went oh man....what will happen now. LoL of course my mind races like i could be imprisoned etc but that fear does not rest with me only further pain of the matter
I guess to make your every secret known on a 52 page document makes for some interesting complexities and one i am not scared to share with the greater populace because i know my faculty of perception of right and wrong was seriously hacked for quite some time.
That I , like you am a character in the sims being lead around by master controllers and programmers and some belong to much higher echelons and eat finer foods and get paid for absolutely fucking nothing but their presence.
I have been taught that by my own doing the only way for me to reach this point is to simply submit to a sugardad or a tobacco dad and be some bottom slut and that is how you make it when in fact this is how most of the gay society inherits their power. Ironic that most of elite gay society is operating in a somewhat sadistic realm.
Then i explore books like codex magica by texxe mars and the 13 illuminati bloodlines by fritz spreigmeister and i can feel their ultra right wing vibes on sexuality through the book writing cruel notations about gay and lesbian men etc
So where does one rest their sexuality when there is no definable end. Most don’t tread there they only go where society and others want them to go including family “oh you should find yourself a nice girl and settle down and become an oppressed slave” lol
While people like me that operate their sexuality in private and in public i just blend in as another program. Girls give me the eye and i get nervous and start sweating....guys give me the eye and i immediately look away because if i look to long they might punch me
So I can only retreat into my virtual domain and use my blog as a venue of dangerous expression as an enlightened being without being able to attain enlightenment for various reasons
You would think an enlightened being would have it all but there are many forms of enlightenment and many forms of expression like one enlightened being may express themselves vocally or socially while some prefer to stay quiet and help on other levels and like me some offer their opinions expressively in the written form
So when one assumes that enlightenment is a far reach from their own life realize one thing
That you are enlightened
You don’t need to gain 500lbs to call yourself an enlightened being
You don’t need to turn a rock to gold
You don’t need to have a handshake that says your in
You don’t need to have $300,450 in the bank to prove your enlightenment and rightfully so you could have -$6 (thats negative lol) and still be enlightened
Even those like me that live on a priests wage or an artists wage have quite the symbiance to society because at some point society turns around and figures out your true wealth and your true value and they reward you for it
My problem is being an aries. I go into misunderstood places, unknown and undefinable places. This is where most see my greatest flaw but i see it as my greatest strength
The power to go into the unknown
The power to believe
The power in the future
The power in yourself
Inherently
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I ask my guides to show me the way and what i get is a nice centipede it took me to a foreign country, America and i was wandering thru places and i found a house and there was a foodcourt in it like food stands and there was food everywhere i passed a building it said mia cia fbi etc i went into a house and they were doing entertainment and stuff and i found a backpack and took it walked up this REALLY steep hill and i was worried about being busted because i was in a foreign country but i took it anyway lolz
Next i met my mom for dinner and we ended up in this place with a bunch of people and they were having wine and we talked about our past and got into a fight then i left and i found out she left and was wandering in a foreign country alone and i panicked i keyed the number into the phone took a thousand tries and i finally got her on the phone and she said she was ok and she was staying in a hundred dollar a night hotel and that we should make up lol aw
Next i was in downtown in middle of a city and i had gone out onto a walkway and the walkway fell and the part i was on started to shake and i yelled to the people in the house and i fell with the walkway and the fall down was intensely psychological in my death i fell and strived to ascend past my life so basically a resurrection i just wanted to grow past the known universe and ascend past everything I hit the ground and it was brutal to go thru.
In tune with an expressive will
Nothing that anybody could comprehend
Nor even want to be apart of
Some may wonder about beings that have nothing yet strive for everything
And many wonder about those that have everything yet strive for nothing at all
And we all have a placement here on this prison for your mind
One of countless dimensions on countless earths in countless places
Is this the cruelty of the system
Or a demi gods Alcatraz
Only one could find out
But before i tell you
They will have eradicated me long ago
-Shaun A. Delage
-Shaun A. Delage
