Of course on my own i would never be able to afford it but thx to my friend and ex i am able to enjoy a trip like this and like the cruises i went on
of course i could read the culture and a profound and mystical experience overcame meh
i figured that i would take another chance at psychic and tarot work because i get ALOT of pre cognitive dreams and situational occurences in my life that make me wonder am i psychic or perceptive then because of my own ego mania i see myself as an anomaly a christos an exile
It is funny because on a surface level i struggle with my own humanity but you break down my own layers a bit and you find that i am an extremely talented individual and i do take time to admire that in myself since my astrological sign is that of ego
This quality is something that many lack and there is a warfare on those that are not bred with god given creativity
I am also coming to terms with the fact that i am essentially a saint, a healer, blessed one, the one.
mind you it is ego maniacal to say such in a public forum for fear of ridicule but i suspect that there is alot more amazing christos and the blessed ones out there it is simply faux pas to see yourself in the role of the spiritual program.
this is the thing i question in myself whenever i list myself as a psychic (it has happened about 20 times so far) is what if i am not really psychic and i have attempted to do readings and one girl really assaulted my reading which caused me to shy away again ironically while receiving pre cognitive dreams and visions then i only need to look at my own inherent earthen stigmata which is a self defeating prophecy in a sense but i realised one thing that i want to be able to offer the best i possibly can while funny i also have been told that i am clairvoyant i think i just need more experience and the knowledge comes in the moment it is basically trusting in a higher power to relay info that needs to be recieved by the person that contacts you so funny i may say something wrong or even get the sex of the individual wrong but that is my greatest fear is that i am not 100% correct but nobody including the matrix can tell you who you are
i have faith in myself so i will trust that
sent the captivation piece to ruport murdochs newspaper the wall street journal before i left
I have made notice to the entire world of this hidden torture state and i think simply the matrix doesnt really know what to do with me but that is all relative in a seeming thousands years old system
