Battling the psychic impressions of enlightenment is usually pretty brutal for me considering my only form of human interaction is with the unseen realms about 70% of my existence
To meet another introvert is rare i mean when would you have the chance, so somebody with common interests is a purely amazing gift. Thanks to the internet and that we are not segregated like in earlier decades. Forcing us to be literally surrounded by an army of cultists that is why enlightenment is going to happen this time around. We can literally pull our own kind from the trauma state.
Trying to find so much balance amidst so much illusion is heartbreaking and in a sense how do you explain to people what your future holds when you don’t even know.
I was pondering the state recently and how it must exist no matter what the invested interest in the state far reaches into approximately 200 years from now and beyond in a literal mindset of the government and there are those paid to dream up the wildest possibilities.
But also likewise the resistance to it all or an anarchistic twist or possibly a revolution must exist as well but there are those on the other side that will secretly develop the argument that they and everyone else should be given enlightenment because even the wealthiest people on earth experience sadistic amounts of boredom and torture and emotions such as compassion and finality.
Deep down inside the cultist mindset is always entertained with harnessing the collective minds into a focus beam much like what was done in the latest wikileaks/anonymous stuff
So in a sense the collective thoughtform being hacked and being able to be directed like a teevee to a rape or murder or ritual so everyone can attend with shaded out eyes and twitchy looks in their faces.
The actual humans were not born with 95% of the known characteristics of humanity... these are all engrained and learned impulses and learned programming much like the ritual mind or the sex mind or the working/slave mind or the food mind etc
Humanity in its purest form was a simpler being with simpler quests and struggles and eventually layers upon layers of alien intelligence and magic developed within our brains and we have always been a highly mysterious culture of beings. With no real explanation of our purpose or our roles here
It is funny to be a person in the resistance and in resistance to everything including the slave trade slave dominion and medical fetishist/gluttonous society we live in. This is not a role i imagine myself to have. Nor did i really even want to have a role in being the vocal opposition to everything. But a role i am willing to accept with pride and love for the future growth of everyone involved.
I am a resistance reverend and apart of some of the coolest genres of the internet. People just don’t understand though when you try and relay some of your experiences or your path in the fringe to more mainstream minds.
It is troubling yes but also furthers the routes of introversion and following your dreams and goals.
To work to finish something is an essential struggle given my own aries nature. I like to start things and ¾ of the way through stop and move onto something else. Soon enough i have a shelf full of 900,000,000 half completed projects
In a way that is why i like art. My art each piece can take anywhere from 20 minutes to an hour and a half and no surprise that i got like 400 done and it is funny to do my art because it is not defined well rather defined in the post modern expression movement which i rightfully enjoy.
I really enjoy the life of the artist because it is a rather self defeating stigmata. I mean nobody wants to be near you because you are so crazy so your meant to express yourself in other mediums not normally known to normal human comprehension
One of my greatest strengths lies with being a secretive programmer much like a spyboy from another galaxy i am able to alter sublimination with ease and send people on a different directive without them knowing.... mind you it is ok to communicate but my communication is much more concentrated and my words are of alien intelligence and one only needs to read thru the formulae of my blog to innerstand this concept
ALOT of people come and are freaked out because they are not willing to entertain themselves in such madness and it is funny to think of the lonely cultist that somehow finds my words to investigate further the attraction of an anomaly
Then furthering the duality sphere is my writ of passage for the church of techno to be instituted for at least the next 1000 years is my captivation piece which relays the trauma state to great detail going up to the highest echelon of governance on the planet queen elizebeth the 2nd. (and some of her representatives in canada and some of the highest reigning reptile and hybridic minds in charge)
What a being and what a paradox to be here almost penniless yet so wealthy in amazing elixr of happiness and love for my own path because i know i will be taken care of no matter what and to get to that level takes skill and a love for ones individualism because very few escape the programming of school/ highschool/ home/ work etc and live to tell about it without developing and growing their actual hybridic mind.
I ask my guides to show me the way and what i get is a nice delight i get a red deer and i love this deer it is really beautiful
It took me to a house i didn’t know what it was i was supposed to say hello to somebody but she started going to the bathroom on herself down her leg through her pants and she was embarrassed i asked her what was wrong and she said she was old and she had serious health difficulties and she said i was a sweet guy and thanks for understanding
Next i went to a bigger obese mason who lured me to his home and he was trying to feed me vodka and he was literally forcing it on me so i tried to leave then he told me to take a sip and then i asked where the washroom was and he said oh its back where you came from so i ran out the door and out into the street where i felt safer and got on a bus and the mason man came after me and found me and the bus driver said i told her off which i didn’t it was this drunk baphomet after me and anyways that all vanished and i ended up at a place i was at for the night and i saw the guy i was with and i let out a scream he was kinda goth and big and well frumpy and long hair so he said what do you have to worry about your gay, your hot, you worry that your 5 lbs overweight so look at me. He said look out at the window so i did and he said see that car going into the underground parking garage i said yes and he was like that is the alcoholic mason that was after you. He is the grand master of a lodge down south.
Wanting a more timely existence where no theory is involved
Wanting a theory where no existence is timely
Wanting a timely existence where involved the theory is
Involved in a theory of my own timely existence
Theory of existence is a timely endeavour
Wanting theory of existence is the only path
- Shaun A. Delage
