A self doubting ever present real illusion
Not just self loathing but extreme self hate
Only the real adept ones are able to look at themselves objectively
and with a discerning mindset
The inner beauty of men.
I enjoy it
I am not going to hide from it
I tend to block out chickz faces
A few kind of lock my eye every so often
But i know i will never go there
It would seem
They could never grasp
A notion of a virgin of my age
Definitely not with men
Ah men
A worshipped race
Yet for most to appear as having it all together
They must have a 50 inch arm
My guy
Is
Somewhat of a butch androgynous
With beautiful female inspired face
Somewhat feline
Full lips but yet high cheekbones
Perfect chin
Tight white shirt
Cut off jogging pants
All skin tight
Slip on old skool tennis kicks
A waistline peering out
In between clothing
An ipod sticking out of the shorts
Hair cut so thin almost gone
Strikingly beautiful
Amazing panther like stride
About 5”9
More of a smaller compact frame
As opposed to my seemingly futuristic greek god frame
Hmmm, amazed at my shoes?
I know size 13 kinda like waterskiis
Well
I am amazed at your leg hair
And athletic socks
This bloke cant be more than 23
Although if he is younger
I couldn’t really entertain the thought
Well
Why the fuck not
17 is my limit
I can indulge
Licks my lips
The way he moves
The way he glances over
Licks his top lip
He has brand newer ipod and sort of used looking handmedown but
Highly appealing skin tight clothes
I have oldest ipod (there is-512mb) and brand new track pants t shirt and well, yea
The shoes
The off set shading is astounding
I couldn’t help but glance over at how nervous the str8 boyz got with his presence
This is the kind of guy i have been ranting about
Anybody into whatever
I wont make any judgements
But anyways
With one glance from his Egyptian face
You are instantly transmuted a new sexuality
Perha[ps]
A new seductive package in your face
Some new sexual positions go round and round in your head
Wait, am i thinking about this...about a .... guy?
LOL
Oh my poor lil tiger cat
Keep pushing 180 Lbs on a chest and shoulder press dear
I can only do about 20 lbs
My thoughts amuse me
The remote viewing is astounding me
A second never before captured
Or perhaps witnessed in all of its form
There is much more harshness happening
Much more beauty
Reminds me of the past few workouts where my past is being thrown in my face like somebody spitting blood in your mouth
Ah the collective or hybrid/ invisible mindset playpuppeteers that control us or much weaker souls to do the acting for our little game
But also the distinction between this and the dreamworld
One night nightmare, like wtf did i just dream
One night sorta insanity in the sleep world
One night beautiful guy making out with me
One night a bunch of bodyparts all over
One night having tea with Her royal majesty at a science fair (séance)
One night stripping in public and having coffee poured on you
One night talking to mythical creatures
One night in some off dimension
Yet people will tell you that it doesn’t exist, that it is all in your head, that your....
DREAMING
Show me, what exactly isn’t real about it
I will show you some amazing facts of our waking life that would make you...
WONDER
So before you quickly tell me unassuming that the dreamworld is fake
I would just first call to light the possibility that you are incapable of dreaming
My world is beauty
Relies on scientific evidence
Amidst the scattering spells
To make one unaware
This emprancement of the soul
This intuition needed to past the hybrid mindset
Of curse you all wonder about me
I am alien to you
I always will be
My own calculation is shaded in mystery
Only about 10,000 out of 6 billion know about their own little puzzling piece
in my life..:.. others will never meet me in person
but will understand on a level, that is assuming... they are relatively creative .-. will see
and will hack the code
& you and i will nevR be the sam.e
- Shaun A. Delage