Without my adoration i am nothing
He is worth it
He is worth the mistakes
He is worth the pain
I see so many, that would compete
They are everywhere
But,
To actually fascinate me every second of every day, when most would be so empty in thought or form
The one that knows.... you are something
Not having to explain yourself
Or open your story book
The one that knows your thoughts
Without letting you know
The one that can take your mind off of your thoughts
Bothersome as they may be
To be in a union
I want to be rich and not famous
But what would that be, without an incredible being by my side
He didn’t give up on me
In my worst times
I must give him my faith in this
And trust that i can over.come this
The Love could never be
A world famous poet, with a big house, a few thousand in the bank
Is nothing without somebody to share it with
To hold your hand
To protect and guide you through your complete insanity
Shield you from the dark energies that surround us all
I not only love him, i love his body
His soul
His smile
His anger
I love the way he is with the ones he loves
I love how he acts around animals
I don’t agree with his outlook one hundred percent, likewise him with me
But i have something to keep my mind off the pain, the trauma, the glances.
I have faith in our union.
It is no mistake that we met
I feel, through sadness and feeling alone the world will see us unite again
I am not complete without him
I have nobody to calm me down
Finding myself, finding my soul without him
Finding a love for my own talented being
Lessen my fears and my drama
The Love could never be
Nobody to shake me out of my nightmare
This being is mysterious
I don’t get him
Probably never will.
Perhaps it may take a lifetime or a few
But at least i can try
On my white boat with blackened waters
Into the night . guarded by my own angels
Trust in the dark sky and the dark ocean
Forget my life i tried to live and just move on
I miss my forest cat
I miss trying to pretend we have it all together
I miss the touch of his hand
The Love could never be
The laugh i get when i display one of my far out theories
to his more practical soul
i miss how calm i feel by his side
i wish for that feeling again, and all the madness and curses would just get bored and leave
because his soul and mine are stronger than all that darkness
and loveless energy
the being that completes me
the being that doesn’t haunt my dreams
but travels with me
and wakes me when i am jolting from dimen.sion to dimension
completely misunderstood by the rest
i know he loves me and adores me
respects me
this won’t be the first time we have been ripped apart
it won’t be the last
but at least i know i can come back and walk by his side and feel protected.
Adored
Respected
AdMiReD
Our future selves help us get back to each other.
The Love could never be
Our beings in the year 3022 guide us..mysteriously
He teaches me how to calm my impulsive nature down
Writing for ages upon ages what i searched for
What i needed
I knew i already had it
I want to go back
I cant give up on him
He needs me
I need him
The forest cat needs both of us together
I want to look my best for him
I want to change my appearance
I want to give him something to look at
To wonder about
To gaze upon with his energetic eye
Something to reflect on when he is away or alone
I know he wants to be needed
He needs to be wanted
He is my safety from harm
He protects me from evil
He lights up my path
He warns me about stepping on a snail
Sometimes i make him explode with energy
Other times i just want to be holding his hand
I know he just enjoys being quiet near me
That is what i adore the most
We have nothing we need to prove to each other
I relay my oddity of a life
He just smiles
I say i don’t want to be alone
He says, that is what i am here for
You never have to be alone again
You never have to touch a nail again
You never have to cry, unless you want to
You will have somebody to lay on
You will have some.body that enjoys your talents
Many of wizards in their tower tried to stop our union
Many of gypsies got jealous of our fate
Many don’t want this to continue
But many do.
It is tough sometimes to tune into the ones that want us to succeed
It is tough to drown out the majorly adept ones that try and stop the love
If i were separated
I would have no reason to want to compete
I would have a half adjusted way of life.
Oh.kay
I can live
But i am not my most precious self
The Love could never be
I am not one that can say.... i know it all
I know i am just a piece of the puzzle
I know my being has quite the understanding
I just know that when i am walking next to him
I feel like eye
belong,
like i have
purpose,
existence.
What fun is cooking for one.
What fun is it trying to pretend like i matter
When i was so willing to turn my back
I needed to meditate on my hurt
I couldn’t cope
I had a relapse of trust
I had a painful time trying to understand
Most cant achieve what we achieved
Most cant relay what we could speak of
Most could not feel the union we have
Simply because they are not welcome to
Many could watch us prance around from a distance
Make assumptions
Fantasize
Smile at our silly walks
But only me and this soul know what we mean to each other
Nobody is deserving my heart
Like this, in a way
Nobody can comprehend it, really
Egotistical all powerful me *grins*
He can
He can show me how to climb higher on my own path
He can filter out my incredible ethical understanding
He can sense my painful intrigue
He knows about the dark rooms i have walked into
He knows about the vortexes opened in my brain sight complex
He understands that i am rather elementary compared to him
But he also understands that i have alot to teach.
That makes me smile about him
It makes me think of how somebody could be so patient
It makes me think about the countless times we have come together and separated
by the exact same self similar forces
repeating in all of time
over and over
move onto the next one that doesn’t matter
forget what we had in anger and contempt
i want to alter my course
i want to be different
i don’t want to give into what they want me to do
i don’t want society to go on as it has been, just a bit more modern every time
i want to make sure i know his code
so that we can meet up again
in the past, future and other selves
i want him to know that he is never alone
i want him to know that he can tell me any.thing and everything
i have heard it all
i want to travel with him
dimensionally
i want to meditate with him
i want to cook for him
i want to clean for him
i want to be amused by him
i want to be kissed by him
i want him to know that i can be like him
i want him to know that i can grow up...eventually
i want him to know i will always be a cry baby about things
but most of all, i want him to know that no matter what i am able to see into his beautiful soul
and forgive.
Because i love him.
But the LOVE could never be, as it was.
Guided away by the ones that left the lay life.
Come together by a force that needs us together
Scared the ones i care for
I know it must be, different
I want it to be as it was
I want everything to remain normal
This world i knew was incredible
The unknown world is a force that is hard to comprehend
My life as it was, was in a system
A system i couldn’t believe in
A place i was welcome in, to learn...i loved it too much. I wanted more –inside
I wanted to live the life i have dreamt
I wanted to hold a title
I wanted to be given prestige
I wanted a life of luxurious overtone
I wanted to be baroness of the city
The place i knew cannot exist as time allows
The place where few are permitted to go
The fate of the universe astounds me
The beauty of the left home ones intrigues me
Every day
I can be me
I can be the monk
I am the monk
I am in this world to learn about myself
The Love could never be
How could i handle wealth, power and authority...
Without knowing the full spectrum
Devoted poverty versus the innate suff.ering of the ones with millions/billions
Each spectrum has their own desire
But the one that crowds my thoughts is the one that doesn’t involve money
One that involves love
Not a sexual desire
Just a love to have the people around you grow and desire to grow
A love for your fellow community
A helping hand for those that cannot feed themselves
A beautiful smile to keep them going
A desire to communicate hypothetically
Dimensionally
Figuratively
Beautifully
To talk to the gods
To have supernatural powers
To be the god.
The Love could never be
The love haunts me
The evolution surrounds me
And i cry at times
Growing is tough
So many give up and choose the easiest option available
I desire this, i crave the time i once had
But The Love could never be
My thought is, i don’t want to overstay my welcome
I tried to be there
I tried my best
I tried to show others what he meant to me
In my own little way
Coming from a place where sexuality was sheltered
A time of bullying
Now, is commonplace for two guys or two girls to kiss in school hallways
Nobody bats an eye
I know the essence of familiarity is tempting
It is elusive yet loved with a touch of class
Class is a very rare gift, indeed
More popular than any monetary influence
Credit is absolved but the nature of a loving touch equates with my own pulse
We are not in our time, we once were
We may be again, we may never be again
You just never know with this
Fuel
Loving status
Colour
Spectrus
Finality or intrigue
I know he thinks i am somewhat enchanted in nature
But wont reveal it in simple articulation
As he would say ...to say it, would be the bane of my existence
How dare i try and hop three feet ahead in college linguistics
When i don’t even know how to put two words together
I just say LOL because i have the time and the.boredom to indulge in a more
Artistic impression
Many wake in the age of aquarius
So it is said
But so many are so beyond that age
And many lie in places way before
In some ways it is easier to handle
Input the code so to speak
One week dealing with the sadness of a passing life
A beautiful life, before there were any words to describe the age
Next celebrating the new birth of a loving celestial being
Here to guide others after they have taught her so much
The touch of a baby on your hands just feeling protected
No real hang-ups, just a trust that you would not stop supporting her neck
She needs us, then we need her
The survival of the beings here
The new boat arrives
Princes everywhere
In some way i saw and loved my prince and know and understand that he matters
And is loved, no matter how much he thinks down upon himself
To me, he will always be incredible
To me, he will always be beautiful,
I mean it’s natural
I mystify him, i know it in some way
Unable to let me know
Some love is like this
Others...you say good bye angrily and quietly
My love is always in motion and always here
I see him.. but i see into the depths of his soul
In some ways i don’t want to dig deep
I just want to let things be
Sometimes i cant handle others in life speaking in riddles
Or future selves
But i love being by him
I will miss him
I will be here to show him what a real influence he can be
Because i am a dreamer
I can see past the present and know what he needs to learn
Our soul.mates are out there waiting
I just don’t want him to make his wait too long.
He gave me my pride, he gave me my soul back, and the power to believe and pray
He gives me his last few crumpled up dollar bills
Even though his cupboards are empty
If i would have known, i wouldn’t have asked
He would have never told me anyway
I admire his soul
I figure he is in pain over our separation, like me as well
But men don’t know how to communicate
It is not in our being to relay this, perhaps the ones with
incarnated womens souls would know
i feel sad for leaving him, i wanted to lay by his side for life
i know he puts on a tough exterior
i saw his more sensitive side masked in a butch nature
my woman in a last life meets his double mens incarnate.
All i know is that i am one hundred percent man in this life
I tried to show him
I wanted to figure out what he is and why he is here
I wonder if he is trying to figure that out as well
I know i see him as an inspiring force, a healing being, a sound expressive will
I know he must laugh about me, everyone does
But i know when he is alone he loves my whole outlook and what i have said to him and shown him
I watch the gushing green waters part grey
I looked up at the bat like signal in the sky about 12 spotlights dancing in all directions
I would feel a great loss if i ever was to part with him
In some ways i go thru that every day i am apart from him
I needed to be healed, i needed to resolve my feelings
I know he will not let me vanish and in some ways i wish he did
I never want to hurt his being
I never want him to suffer
I only wish for him to become as powerful as he dreams
To look at me and say goodbye
In some ways it would be easier
I love being in tune with his vibe
Many can relate
Some with different beings, others with family, some in their
favourite country house
Others feel like it when they are gliding across a calm lake
I owe him my life
My superhero
I know where i would have been
if he wasn’t there
In some ways i fear that now
But i know where i would have been
And i wanted to say thank you.
May you inspire others to
be just like you.
- Shaun A. Delage